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Is pretty much kicking my ass. As well as screwing up with my schedule and I've been struggling to remember to take my anxiety meds which, shocker, means I've been struggling really bad with anxiety lately. I honestly don't believe there are many things worse than anxiety...

It's been effecting my school work, my daily life, and my relationships. It's been completely awful and Wednesday can not come fast enough. I am meeting with a therapist that I met with back five years ago when I was first diagnosed with my anxiety disorder, and I'm glad that she was able to take me back as a patient. I felt she was very easy to talk to, she was quick and figuring out how to help me, and I am crossing my fingers that she can help me get my anxiety under control sooner rather than later.

Every day I am struggling with feelings of self-depreciation and feeling unimportant. I am having an issue with someone who I consider to be my best friend and I am scared to get my anxiety under control for only one reason: part of me isn't sure if my anxiety is the reason we're having issues. Part of me is wondering if she's using my anxiety as an excuse. Time will tell on that front, I suppose, and I guess in reality it's better to know who your real friends are... but she was there for me more than anyone else through my divorce and it will be a huge loss if our relationship has truly changed.

Also, after my appointment, I booked myself a massage and facial and I am so ready for that. Like, so ready.

Date: 2017-02-27 05:12 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] kalliel
I agree--anxiety is the worst, and it's so hard to then figure out where the cause and effect is, especially with the big stuff like relationships with important people, and feelings of performance and efficacy and importance (or unimportance). <333 Lots of hugs for you. I'm glad you're giving yourself a massage/facial date. Well-deserved!

Date: 2017-02-27 05:20 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] be-my-precious.livejournal.com
i had to change my med cycle a few times. i used to put an alarm on my phone with different tones so i would remember to take my meds.

i'm so glad that the therapist took you back as a patient. hopefully with therapy and getting adjusted to a new med schedule will help.


Date: 2017-02-27 05:38 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 67-black-impala.livejournal.com
I'm happy your old therapist could make room for you, especially since you felt like she helped last time. I hope that you start feeling better soon and that this situation with your friend works out okay.

Take care of yourself and if you ever want to talk you know where to find me :)

Date: 2017-02-27 05:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] skaredycat.livejournal.com
I suffer from Severe anxiety and Panic attacks, its the worst along with severe depression, I know what you mean, my meds got changed a few times. I don't really like my thearipist but am working on it.
if you ever need to talk, I will be happy to.

Date: 2017-02-27 08:22 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] adelheide.livejournal.com
Shift work is tough. I used to be able to do it, no problems at all. I can't anymore. The older I got, the tougher it became. For some, they can never adjust to the hours.

Naturally, when your body is off kilter, it's going to affect your emotional health. It just makes everything that much more difficult.

So sorry you're dealing with this.

Date: 2017-02-28 05:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] reeby10.livejournal.com
That sounds terrible, but I hope your therapist and a massage can help at least a bit to get you back on balance *hugs*

Date: 2017-02-28 08:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] somer.livejournal.com
*hugs you* Hang in there! WEDNESDAY IS NEAR!

And a massage sounds wonderful! DESERVED!

Date: 2017-03-01 12:24 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kattrip033.livejournal.com
That's great that you could get back with your old therapist. And enjoy that massage!

Date: 2017-03-04 01:19 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] beelikej.livejournal.com
Ugh, sorry to hear your life is overwhelming in a bad way right now. Hope your trusted therapist can help you put things in the right perspective and figure out ways to deal. *hugs*

Yay for booking a massage and facial; I have no experience with the latter, but am a big fan of massages, they are so soothing <3. (Mine always end with a bit of face stroking, is that similar to a facial?;)


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