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This year I signed up to do art for the Destiel BB as well as writing!

This is Counting Stars by [livejournal.com profile] polleekin

I will update link/summary/etc after her post is live.

on to the art! )
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The first thought I had when I woke up yesterday morning was that I have never been more ashamed of the fact that I am American.

Is America really racist, hateful, bigoted and uneducated enough to elect that??

I feared for my rights as a woman. I feared for my gay, lesbian, and transgender friends' rights as human beings. I feared for healthcare, our next generations and the honest to God safety of the county I live in.

I do not believe in his slogan "Make America Great" again. America is already one of the strongest and safest countries in the world. Turn on the news and watch what many other countries go through and fight for every day that we have JUST taken advantage of. I feared that segregation and division is where we were headed, for race and gender alike. That our country will slowly revert to what our civil rights and suffrage activists fought to change if, that is, we aren't bombed by another country who has now seen how truly weak we are.

Speaking to my mother today made me feel minimally better. She said that most of his life, he was a Democrat. He's been close with the Clintons, best friends with them, shared in each other's and their daughter's weddings, supported Clinton. She thinks that he's going to surprise us somehow in the White House.

The reason that Trump got so popular so fast and knew how to do it, was because he is a celebrity. He knew what to say and how to say it to get media coverage. This is the man who did not spend very much on the election and that's good in the sense that he doesn't owe anybody. He isn't going to have to fulfill promises and make things happen from other politicians, because he didn't use any of them to get to this place. Instead, he's going to be his own person and he's going to make his own decisions and he's going to do what he is going to do…

I don't think, or this may just be wishful thinking, that he is as bigoted as he put off for this campaign. He is friends with Elton John went to their wedding, he's employed and done things with the LGBT community. By being a Democrat before, he knew how to get the Democrats… What he needed to figure out, and what he did, was get to the Republicans. He did so by promoting pro-life, anti-gay and anti-women, promoting jobs and security. He used it in a way that was talking to the Republican middle-aged white male.

My mom said that what we need to do is figure out how he appealed to these people. That is what Hillary wasn't able to do… He had a huge population of educated white women vote for him. Why? He had Hispanics and people of color voting for him. Why? What is it that these people who are educated and smart and have done research, saw in him?

The figuring that out is what we need to do is figuring out how to talk to the generation that will not miss voting for anything. People weren't happy with either of our candidates, less than half of our population eligible to vote voted!! For some it was because they're too scared to leave their houses, it's too dangerous to walk down the street. For others it was that they just couldn't get there… I think that we need a system where people can vote online. We can submit tax IRS documents online so we should be able to vote online. This would make it so that nearly everyone was eligible to vote. People who can't walk, people who can't drive, people who worked (I had to use PTO to vote and got written up for leaving early), people who have kids and wives and just can't get out of the house, or people that are too scared to walk down the street. Anyone could vote and they could do it privately.

She also told me that we don't have to like him. But we have to respect him for the fact that he's our president… So, if we ever see him, we smile we shake his hand because we are meeting the president. However, if he does follow through and put up a wall, if he does follow through and make Muslims where things on their clothing, if he does follow through and try to abolish gay marriage or women's rights or any of this bullshit? Then we don't have to give him any respect.

It's a terrible thing to wake up and feel sick to your stomach about the country you live in. But that just means there is more of a fight to be had. It's analyzing why Trump won, what the people in this country feel they're missing, and how they can look past the awful words and actions he promoted through this campaign. I have to hope that he will surprise us, I have to believe the campaign was a show. Even if that's not right? To not hold onto that hope would be devastating.
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Happy Holidays from your SPN Family!!

I am part of a few groups on FB and there have been multiple card exchanges going on. I thought this would be a good way for fans to connect, through multiple ships and parts of the world!

You can sign up to send or receive cards or both! This is an honor system: if you sign up to send cards, you will receive addresses and if you do not send them, your people will be missing out.

You can send a SPN themed card or a traditional card; let’s face it, EVERYONE loves mail!!

“Claims” will be up until Wednesday, November 16th and emails with your addresses will be sent out by the 20th (I am hoping sooner but I have NO clue how many people will be interested in this).

Please send out your cards by December 20th. I know some may end up past Christmas or New Years, but it’s also going to be halfway through November and sometimes people are busy!

You can sign up here:
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I had a blast making art for this fic! It was cute and had a lot of things to make art for! Some things I am only posting one of (the chapter titles, newspaper articles, tweets and texts) and to see them all you'll just have to read the fic :)

More Art This Way )
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This year I signed up to do art for the Destiel BB as well as writing!

This is Counting Stars by [livejournal.com profile] polleekin

I will update link/summary/etc after her post is live.

on to the art! )
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Hey guys!

I am looking for an Alpha Reader. Cas and I have made huge edits from our two Betas and we want to make sure everything flows and we didn't miss any details.

I posted a summary and teaser for my last post but basically it's 10 chapters, around 130k words, and a Mafia ABO AU (Cas Omega, Dean Alpha if that matters). Violence, gore, regular ABO dynamics, character death (though not Sam/Dean/Cas).

Let me know if anyone is interested!
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POISK ISTINY (Finding Truth)
Story: [livejournal.com profile] angelnovak (CassondraWinchester) & [livejournal.com profile] lotrspnfangirl
Graphics: [livejournal.com profile] zephyrchrysalis

Coming: NOVEMBER 23!

Rating: Explicit | Genre: ABO - AU | Other Pairings: Sam/Jess | Word Count: 100k+ | Warnings: Mob-level violence, Character death (not main), torture, ABO dynamics, mpreg (not graphic).

A rival family is stealing the Patriarca Family’s Boston shipments and collecting a neat payday five hours away on the streets of Brooklyn and Manhattan. But their Don, Dean Winchester, is wary about reaching out to a long-time New York ally. The Russian Bratvas just do things differently. The young Pakhan, Castiel Krushnic, is hard-nosed and very violent and while violence is a mainstay in any underworld family, this boss has a special flair for it. It leaves an uncomfortable taste in Don Winchester’s mouth. But encouraged by his Consigliere, Bobby Singer, he finally relents.

The Pakhan is quite different from what The Don was expecting. Dean learns the man’s secret quite by accident and decides to keep it to himself. They have bigger fish to fry as they discover traitors in both of their organizations while their enemy ups the stakes for each of them. And after members of each family are kidnapped, the stakes get even higher.

Betrayed from within leads to exposing long held secrets and when long denied desires are unleashed it puts each of them on a path that will change their lives forever.
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I stole this from [livejournal.com profile] aravishermione because I think it's a fantastic idea!! It's friend-list friday and since I've been so horribly MIA I miss you guys and I want to know everything about you ♥

--When you are sad or depressed, what do you do to cheer yourself up?
--When you are studying or just hanging out, do you prefer noise (music, people, whatever) or quiet?
--Are you superstitious? If so, how much...very, or just like the "well I don't walk under a ladder" type?
--You're going on a road trip across whatever country you live in. Which three fictional characters would you bring along if you could?
--Are you vegan, vegetarian, selective ("just chicken" or fish or whatever), or ALL THE MEAT YAS?
--Do you prefer spicy, sweet, salty, or bland food?
--Coffee, tea, or?
--Chocolate: milk, dark, or white? Or *gasp* none?
--Are you in a Hogwarts House? If so, which one?
--What are your plans this weekend?
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God, it's been forever! So sorry!

Between starting my new job and dealing with internet problems... I've been either exhausted or frustrated 90% of the time LOL Currently, I am internet-void, which sucks. But the company my dad signed up for was seriously smoking crack. They claimed I used 10GB of data in thirteen days!!! When I asked her how the heck that was possible when I literately use gdocs, facebook, and LJ.. she told me that "10 GB is really not a lot of data when you think about it."

Um. Seriously?

The internet was complete shit-- I couldn't even watch a 'Tasty' recipe video on facebook because it wouldn't load. Therefore, any streaming or gaming was impossible. I asked for a printout of when the data usage was and they couldn't give it to me. So... needless to say, they're not longer my internet provider. They're appealing (after I had some... very kind words) to get my fee waived because since I was canceling 23 months early (again, customer for 13 days only) they were going to charge me $400 and another $150 because the equipment they need back is on the roof of the condo association attached to the satellite and I told them they could get it themselves (which, is a $95 charge of course).

So I called my bank, claimed my card was stolen, and am waiting for a new one. I would like to see them try to charge me almost $600 now. Assholes.

In other news, I am basically officially divorced. The paperwork is in front of the judge but I highly doubt there will be a problem with anything. We didn't really have anything to fight about. The house is being shown relatively often, but no bites yet. I am going to push to have the price lowered again but Peter is making everything difficult. He went as far as telling me he, "didn't give a shit if the house sold or not" the other day which made me see red. If you don't care, why did you force me out of there?

So glad to be free of him.

I absolutely love my new job, though it's got it's moments... we had a code silver yesterday while I was a 1:1 and I immediately went to the shooter episode in Grey's Anatomy lol It really wasn't funny... but the guy was down in the ED and high on something, and he didn't actually fire the gun so it was all okay in the end. But, still, scary. Manchester NH is a very different world than Concord, that's for sure LOL

Currently, I am a 1:1 with two patients -- a woman who OD'd yesterday on heroin and was combative with staff in the ER last night -- they don't know what she will be like when she wakes, so I have to watch her and have a nice panic button clipped onto my scrub top-- and the second woman has an infection and it's made her batshit crazy.

One of the things with heroin (maybe other IV drugs too? But mostly heroin) is that it damages your heart-- there's a huge risk of getting endocarditis from it and a good portion of my patients are addicts ((I am not on a cardiovascular surgical unit-- all heart surgeries and bariatric surgeries)). Yesterday I was a 1:1 with a 23 year old who had been doing heroin since she was 14 and had to sit there while they told her if she didn't complete rehab? She wouldn't get her surgery, and then she would die in 6 months. It's not usually that intense, but the look on her mother's face just killed me. The patient, however, was pissed because they killed her last buzz with narcan and just... doesn't get it. She thinks they'll do her valve replacement anyways.

Um, no. They're not going to waste resources on repairing a heart that will just continue to be damaged... as awful as that sounds.

Also kind of makes me want to write a cardiac-type of fic. But, I digress.

I am officially under 200lbs, too!! It's been almost two weeks now, but I haven't had internet in almost that long and haven't gotten in to update. I feel absolutely fantastic :) I'll post some pictures later when I get my internet back (HOPEFULLY this weekend. If not, I will be at the library so I can finish editing my DCBB and work on the art for the fic I picked up).

[livejournal.com profile] angelnovak and I will be posting Poisk Istiny (Finding Truth) on November 23rd :) I am super excited to post it!!

I am also working on a fic for the J2RBB, Sastiel BB, and Megabang. Because I am mental. LOL But its nice to get back into the swing of things :)


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