Craziness Continues!

[lotrspnfangirl]

Oh man, so things finally start to settle (husband wise) and school has come right in with a bang.

I've started my psych rotation which has been... fascinating so far. I have decided already that I want to be a psych nurse. I have always been interested in psychology and even though I've only had two clinical days so far? I am so in my element it's not even funny. The other seven people I am with have been horrified so far while we're there. I've been having a blast (and find my heart breaking for the patients that are there) and of course, realizing that I have to continue working on emmatheslayers fic Saving Grace because I miss it oh so much. And have realized many different mistakes and liberties I've taken as far as fiction goes, but hey.

Otherwise... My husband has decided that he's agreed to wait until May to file... and although he's 100% done and wants OUT... now he's okay with waiting? He's gotten me on a fucking rollar coaster of emotions. He pissed me off, so I may have kind of told him about the sexting thing from a few weeks ago... but I may have let him believe that something else happened. Well, he was bullshit, and then changed his mind about us being able to 'date' other people. He said that starting a sexual relationship right now isn't right for us or the other people since we're not ready. Um... Okay, I agree but... aren't YOU the one that doesn't want ME? He's all over the place.

We're trying to be 'friends'. I am going to go along with that until things are final. One? I don't want this to be awful, if we're getting divorced then we need to be amicable. Two? I still am holding out hope that he will wake the fuck up and decide to work on his marriage before it gets to that point. If it does? There's no way and no reason for us to be friends what so ever. We don't have kids, there's no reason for us to have any sort of relationship. So... we will see I guess.

I've been catching up on beta work -- thankfully, I was so behind-- and then I am trying to work on Oaks. It's been waaaay too long.

What's everyone's thoughts on last weeks Supernatural and Misha as Lucifer?!

Comments

[aravishermione]

*hugs* Hooray that psych is going well! And it does seem like hubby is having second thoughts...and doesn't want you seeing anyone else so he must still feel something, right?

I am not a fan of Lucifer in Cas' body because...Cas :( My poor Cas :(

[lotrspnfangirl.livejournal.com]

*hugs*! Yes!! I have no idea where to even stand with him... I mean, I want him to change his mind and come home... but I'm just giving him space and focusing on me. I think right now, the only one that will change his mind is himself. So... here's freaking hoping.

YES! But... Misha did fantastic, I think. I'm excited to see what happens and I think that the boys are going to figure out pretty damn quickly that it's not Cas Cas... and I am glad because that hopefully means we will have more of a focus on Castiel now!